I forgot the meaning of loneliness when Ervin came into my life. Since that fateful day, everything became so colorful and meaningful which made me feel "at last,... I'm alive!!!" My mornings have been filled with sweet nothings, my afternoons with tender affections and my nights with loving promises, of course, romanticism will be awfully boring without the downside - petty quarrels, indifferences, fears, DISTANCE,.. but that's what make things balanced and more passionate. Just like now, an hour without talking to Ervin feels like a participation with the Hindu system of purdah. Grrrrr..... I know that's why it's called a RETREAT - the company must have intentionally booked a place far and away from interruptions (physically and electronically. . . . . . ) for privacy, peace and quiet refuge. Darn,.. guess not even a single call could be established from where he is right now. Everybody knows that cellphones are indispensable. I totally agree that the most brilliant invention is the cellphone and I can say that my cellphone is my bestfriend. So, instead of nagging people around to turn off their mobile phones and barring electronic gadgets like laptops (and PCs are a person's windows to the whole wide world) - just to preserve and not to spoil the purpose of a Retreat, someone who's smart must have found a safe place. Well, it's only FOR NOW, everything in life,.... is only for now..., life goes on, nothing lasts, life's full of surprises, you'll be faced with problems of all shapes and sizes.... we'll accept the things that we cannot avoid for now,.. FOR NOW DISCOMFORT,.. only for now... pampamparapam,... pampamparapam.... pammmmmm