Why does waiting have to be this hard?? It always presents uncertainties and I hate it when things are uncertain. Maybe Ervin and I are impatient, but it's like we are racing against time. When I got my period last January, both of us felt frustrated but eyeing anxiously for another chance in June. The bleeding barely lasted 4 days and it was kinda unusual for me because normally, I would have it for 5 days till a week. But, ok, I did not amplify any issue on that; maybe it came on short supply! But came February 17 and did not endure the day?!? My first reaction was surprisingly frightened. I thought I'm having an early retirement on ovulation. Zapping back to reality, I immediately consulted my Ob-Gyn via text and was advised to take a pregnancy test right away. And so I did. 

My first pregnancy test was a mixture of excitement, happiness and a little bit of fear. When just a single purple band appeared on that tiny testing plate after a while of waiting, I was at first in denial - the instruction said 3 mins of waiting should reveal the result but even after I threw the kit to the garbage can later than 5minutes, I pulled it out to see if there was really just a single band. My eyes did not lie.

I just took another test, this time sent the urine sample to the hospital thinking - maybe they have a more accurate reading. I don't feel the symptoms yet, just lethargy and some light headedness and they say that pregnancy differs from one to the other... I surfed the net and found this site where they offer AM I PREGNANT? QUIZ and finished it with the result stating -------------------------------

Am I Pregnant? Quiz

Now, my Ob Gyn wants to put me on medication. Duphaston for 5 days, twice a day. She said that if I menstruate after the 5th day, then I really am not pregnant and the possibility of bleeding problem looms, but IF after the 5th day and no menstrual flow occured, then WE HAVE A VERY VERY GOOD NEWS!!!

I'm yearning to be a mom. I may actually appear like a deranged person, but with my hands on my tummy, I talk to my baby saying to hold on and be still. Nine months is such a short time and we will go through it all.