What do you do when you know that the truthful words will hurt the one you love? As much as you'd like it to be the key to unchain the person from the inner cage of inquietude, outspokenness only generates snag dragging the person back to confinement.

I was with a friend, Lynn, this afternoon, driving around the city with no direction until the aroma of Starbucks coffee steered our senses on the way to SM. Ahhh my first taste of caffeine after 8 months!!!  It actually helped pacify the gnawing feeling which has been splitting apart my sanity  for the last 24 hours. Lynn parked her CRV south side and trod the hot concrete across the parking area and up the stairs to the mall. It's really fun to be out window shopping in a mall with a girl friend. Small pretty things like this, I cannot trade for a bar of chocolate. Hee hee 

Just before dusk, we headed back to the parking area. Hand in hand, (PDA!@!.... oh well, no Sr. Catherine around ) Lynn began spilling her words of wisdom one by one. Surprisingly a significant moment happened just after she uttered "Gina, maybe God wants to show His work through you..." - there, just a few feet away from where we were standing, revealed a heart shaped wet patch on the pavement. Heart, for love. Yeah,.. I got it!

Later this evening, I went to church with my mother and sister. Caught up in my own web of discernment, I was brought back to the real world by the priest's sermon which emphasized on MERCY and COMPASSION. God precisely has talked to me today. I know exactly what he wants me to learn and execute. I just don't know if I can do it! I need His strength and I need it now badly.